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My shadow slips to silence among the aquatic acacias. Even here, leaves abound, draped over the fuzz-curves of his figure as he soaks up the moonlight. Papa's soft voice turns my gaze to the moon. Remember, Carlos, our shadows are but imprints of the moon. Remember the Eclipse. I shiver and hold onto an acacia branch. I'm careful not to let my shadow near the shoreline where sea meets sand. That's why acacias are aquatic; they drowned their fate with the sea, Papa says. We cannot, we must not let it be our shadow's fate. We are nothing without our shadows. And yet the tide sweeps towards my toes as the moon charioteers across the silver nightscape. I leap back onto the thorns, onto the blue leaves and pray my shadow seeks dry ground. Sometimes he doesn't pay attention.

ii.

My shadow ripples to the privacy of the umbrellas. Some aquatic acacias were born like that, shaped like the human plastic as though it would dispel their liquefied sin. I think about joining him, but the tide holds me back. Papa chastises me in my ear. Carlos, the shadow will try to seek nirvana on this shore. When he tries to join the water, you must stop him. Still, I cling to this branch for two hours into the night and the shadow does not move. The tide though leaves a coin-like sheen upon the sand.

iii.

The shadow meanders towards me now at my call and in its reflection I see the cool quietness of his being. Spaniards, I find, are so loud and coarse when compared to their cousins, the moon-selves of our bodies and ultimately, our shadows. I remember my German cousin sneering "Doppelganger" but Papa is quick to inform me otherwise. It is not our other self, it is our self, like a part of a Babushka doll. They are independent of us yet inseparable from us. And they cannot go into water, for it will dilute their essence and make us weaker. They are the slivers of the moon we worship and so they are sacred, what gives our life meaning. Papa tells me all this, when we fish in the ocean. I am never comfortable with those words though. Instead I hold on to the acacia branch even more tightly.  

iv.

My shadow slides to arrive with the knife-like immensity of the colour violet. I felt colours the day I found my shadow on the banks of the River Garcia. Papa still tells the story to the villagers and shakes his head whenever I say feeling the colours scared me more than encountering my shadow. That day, the rising sun shone like circular bronze on the riverbank and the shadow was wading knee-deep in the river. I paused in water-gathering, at first curious. The shadow saw me and with a flick of his hand he fused sunbeam and water so violets sprang from his hands. I screamed and ran from him for that colour blinded me and made me howl; Papa, gathering firewood nearby, rushed to my aid and carried me while the other firewood-gatherers bound my shadow and dragged him to the centre square of our village. The day when a young man finds his independent shadow is generally his coming of age but I only felt sick as we were fused at the square. I could see the loss in my shadow's eyes. I could see violet, the clash of fire and water. He never lets me forget, even tonight.

v.

One hundred grill-tops quieten down under the light of a canoe. The midnight feast is over; I hear the last villager toss his fish bones into the embers of a once roaring fire. Still that canoe's lantern burns brightly, casting square pieces of flame-light upon the sea. Papa's canoe, I guess, but I cannot be sure. Slowly, I unglue my hand from the branch and tread carefully on the sand. My shadow leaps eagerly towards the umbrellas again but I call him back. I see him waver and in that moment a wave comes dangerously close. His figure flickers as the sea spray whips him at the knee. I call him back, more sternly, and he obeys, shivering. More carefully now, we mount the pier on the edge of the shore where the canoe is tied up. I lean forward to douse the flame. Suddenly, my shadow jumps. I see the water churn upwards where he falls but I cannot see him at all. I panic. I remember Papa's words. Must not, must not! Words flow from my lips but the sea remains answerless, doomed to cycle again and again without giving. Where is he? Where is--?

vi.

A light falls upon my chest and in reflection, I see acquiescence. The shadow emerges from the dark, his fuzzy outline barely perceptible in glaring moonlight but he was calm. There were days we fought as man and shadow and I remember striking him in the heart. My fist simply passed through him and he smiled though not at my futility. He looked to the ground where we fought over, smooth dirt and a jagged stone with my father's name, and shook his head. He lifted three fingers and put down one while still looking at the stone. Then he raised his head, his two fingers shaped like a peace sign. I lifted my fingers to mimic his action, my face colouring but he shook his head and put down one finger. The remaining finger now stood up catching the sunlight like a sundial and for five minutes we stood like this. I felt his finger-shadow land first on my right eye then my left as the sun descended. He finally bowed his head with dark fingers clasped in prayer.

That night, tonight in fact, he leapt from the window of our cottage and reluctantly I followed him to the shore. Now as the tide carries him further and further away he morphs into the sea. I gasp and fall into the canoe, tipping water in. I scoop and scoop though I know I'll find nothing left of him. Something cracks; I feel the canoe drifting. In terror I leap out and swim to shore although the tide is sucking back, faster and faster than I can resist and I swear I see my shadow's face slide across the moon, with knife-like intensity and I wonder if this is his final revenge, all these years…and then it's just shore under me as the tide rolls me all the way up the sand. I hear shouts from the villagers as they thunder past me to the shoreline and see the moon disappear as though carved up for a hungry god. Papa's best friend stops by me and pulls me to my feet. He points to the moon. Is that my shadow, his eyes ask. I nod. He smiles sadly and pats my head and glances up just in time to see the shadow fade. I know he won't be coming back but I'm okay with it. I avoid the eyes of the villagers tramping past with sympathetic looks and make for the tallest umbrella acacia on the shoreline. I climb to the top and stay there until dawn hangs over the ocean. The violets are just violets, nothing more and I laugh in the salty breeze. As I slip down the trunk and walk on the sand I do not notice a dark figure shaped just like me, slanted slightly and mimicking my every move, just like my shadow's finger-shadow. Instead, my eyes look to home.
04/29/11: Wow, DD! Thank you ^Halatia and =zebrazebrazebra and everyone else who has read this. :heart:

For #transliterations 5th prompt (about goddamn time I actually submitted to their prompts since I was going to submit to the very first one all those months ago. >.>). In a nutshell, I'm supposed to use a poem in a language I don't know and try to translate it by myself and reflect that meaning in my "transliterated" piece. It was a pick between French, Spanish and Italian. I wanted to do the French one but I'm disqualified because I studied French at school (although that didn't mean I could understand every single word in the poem >.>) so it fell to Italian and Spanish. I technically know bits of Italian thanks to my years of playing the piano so really it ended up being the Spanish, which I was drawn to anyway, only because I was already working out the words in my head and I really liked the sound/look of it. Thank goodness French belongs to the Romantic Languages so at least I had some basis to attempt my fail translating. The poem is by Frederico Garcia Lorca, which goes like this:

Mi sombra va silenciosa
por el agua de la acecia.

Por mi sombra están las ranas
privadas de las estrellas.

La sombra manda a mi cuerpo
reflejos de cosas quietas.

Mi sombra va como inmenso
cínife color violeta.

Cien grillos quieren dorar
la luz de la cañavera.

Una luz nace en mi pecho,
reflejado, de la acequia.

So basically, the bolded lines are my fail translating from each stanza, hence the six parts. And the rest of it was the story that just kinda spawned from my mind...so I don't know if that disqualifies me from the prompt because I'm not really transliterating directly half the time, more like transliterating the mood and feel of the poem. ^^; It struck me as a very quiet, somber poem, filled with reflection so I sort of tried to capture it in this story. As for where I got the idea for 'shadow', I thought "sombra" initially as somber, but when I looked at it in context (assuming 'mi' means 'my' ^^;) I didn't think the adjective made sense, and then I looked more closely at the word and the 'ombra' part reminded me of 'umbra', like penumbra, like penumbral eclipse of a moon, like a shadow across the moon and off went my imagination. :P I don't even know whether it's right but shadow perfectly fits the mood of the poem so...:shrug:

Otherwise, enjoy my epic fail of transliterating this. xD I apologise if 80% of this doesn't even make sense, because we all know umbrella acacias, let alone aquatic ones, don't exist. :no: Or moon-shadows for the matter. As for the title, I was reminded of this song which I sang ages ago when I was a little kid that goes something like "Me and my shadow, my shadow and me...etc etc". I don't know what it's called though. D: And it seemed like the only fitting title I could think of, because as usual I fail at titles.

And I know I wasn't going to write for a while but procrastination got hold of me during a history project and this prompt was too intriguing to pass up. Plus, I was going kinda crazy from not writing and it sometimes spills out at inconvenient times. =P

Comments and critique appreciated. I hope the themes and symbols and motifs carry across well enough and it's not too confusing, or telly. I'm still working on subtlety.
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For such a short piece, Me and My Shadow by =julietcaesar is so well layered that it feels like several stories are hidden beneath the surface. ( Suggested by zebrazebrazebra and Featured by Halatia )

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Solaces Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2011
Gorgeous.
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julietcaesar Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you. :) And for the fave. :)
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angelStained Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2011   Writer
This is achingly beautiful, and not in that way that everyone says-- it's like zooming into nature, human or not, and finding little bits of amazing in there.

I think I stumbled over my thoughts.
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julietcaesar Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Best comment on this piece yet. :heart: That's what I've always hoped to do in my work. :)Thank you.
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angelStained Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2011   Writer
Best comment? I really need to send more comments, then. :heart: Write something more soon!
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julietcaesar Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
I'm trying my best! :heart:
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Solarune Featured By Owner May 25, 2011   Writer
Ooh, I really love this! The concept is brilliant and the mood is so beautiful and floaty and surreal. Some beautiful imagery in here, especially about the tide and the moon – almost prosetry. I got the same feel off this that I did off the Spanish poem, too – darkness and quiet water and night and solitude.

Congrats on the DD! :)
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julietcaesar Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you! :heart:
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Solarune Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2011   Writer
You're welcome :)
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LiliWrites Featured By Owner May 13, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Good heavens. What a beautiful, intriguing piece of writing. You improve every time you put pen to paper my dear. :)
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